What Have I Gotten Myself Into? by Paula Rose Michelson


~~~~~~~~~~~~Reflective Questions

What motivates you?

Are you afraid of failure, success, or never trying?

What are you willing to give up to achieve your goal?


~~~~~~~~~~~~~The Text

Since she did not know how to answer, she thought of her needs. “Excuse me. May I ask some questions?”

“If you must.”

“What is your name and how long will it be until I can leave?”

“Those are the same questions every one of you asks.” Tía poured another cup of tea for herself. “Those I have business dealings with call me La Señora. You are to call me Tía as all my girls do. Vida is my given name, but few have permission to use it. It breeds familiarity. Do you understand?”

“I suppose so.”

Tía looked at the girl, motioned for her to say more, and waited.

A moment passed before Naomi understood what the old tía had implied. When she did, she asked, “This is a business arrangement, right?”

“Correct, a business arrangement. But nonnegotiable since you must stay here or be picked up by immigration and deported.”

“I understand.”

“Good. Now, so that no one will suspect what we are doing, it is best for you to call me Tía, as Victor said. This will make it easy for others to believe that I really am your aunt. Our little ruse will make sense to immigration and the community, should they choose to investigate our situation.” She eyed the girl. “I have given you something you could not get without my help. Now you will give me payment.”

“All right.” Naomi’s heart raced at what she might have agreed to. “How do I pay you?”

“Since you are fifteen and a minor, you will work for me until you are twenty. That is a good age for a woman to be on her own. Before then, I believe someone might take advantage of you. During these five years, you will be able to pay me back for what I have done for you. At the end of that time, you will have your freedom, the skills you need to make your way in this country, and five hundred dollars—one hundred dollars for each year you are with me, a good amount for a young woman to begin a new life with.”

Even as Naomi nodded, she wondered what the old woman would ask of her and wished that the woman who looked like her tía Rosa was actually her sweet aunt. However, she knew that the resemblance was only an illusion. “I have nowhere to go and no one who cares. I will give
you what you ask.”

“Good. Then welcome to mi casa.” She picked up Naomi’s suitcase. “Now come.” She walked to the bedroom across the hall from the kitchen, opened the door, and gestured for Naomi to enter. “Many have been happy here. You will be too.”

Naomi looked around the sparsely furnished room that was to be her home.

Tía pointed to the wardrobe. “In there you will find everything you need.” She walked to the wall cattycorner from the bedroom door, pulled aside the yellow drapes, and flipped on a light switch. Naomi looked through a lovely pair of French doors that opened onto a large patio. A fountain, much like those in Spain, with chairs around it, as well as a loveseat and a few scattered side tables, were directly in front of her. Off to the right was a wrought iron dining set, which could accommodate eight. She drank in the beauty and serenity of the place and her breath caught for a moment. The old woman’s unspoken words were clear; she would be able to sit by the fountain and gaze at the garden below.

“As you can see, I have chosen not to treat you as a servant but as a guest in mi casa. I ask that you do what I require and respect my privacy, as I will yours. And you must at all times remember your place. Now, I will leave you to change into something acceptable for one who works for me to be wearing. When you come back to the kitchen, we will eat and discuss your duties.”

Naomi sat on the old iron bed, took a moment to think about her situation, and wondered, What have I gotten myself into?


~~~~~~~~~~~~Author’s Comments

In Hosea 8: 1-3 the reaping of the whirlwind is prophesied for Israel, for the Scripture says, “Put the trumpet to your lips! An eagle is over the house of the Lord because the people have broken my covenant and rebelled against my law. Israel cries out to me, ‘Our God, we acknowledge you!’ But Israel has rejected what is good; an enemy will pursue him.


Just as the above prophesy is for a season, so is Naomi’s indenture. And, my friend, this is true of whatever trial or hardship you are going through. So take heart for God will never leave you for he wants to be your friend. Trust in him for he loves and paid the price for you. 

 

~~~~In light of this truth take a look at your answers to these questions:


What motivates you?

Are you afraid of failure, success, or never trying?

What are you willing to give up to achieve your goal?

Is there something you need to add, remove, or reframe? Life is all about learning, for it is in the process that we know more, and knowing more causes each of us to rethink what we assumed were our bottom line absolutes. 

Making the Best of a Bad Situation, by Paula Rose Michelson


Before you read today’s text, you might be able to understand Naomi better if you ask yourself:

1). If I were Naomi, frightened, alone, and inside the old Tía’s house what would I fear, or wish for?

2). If I felt bereft of everything, with no hope in sight and nothing to cling to, how would I act?

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~The Text

            The old woman put the kettle on to boil. “I will make some tea and we will talk.” When the teapot whistled, she set the leaves to steep. While they waited, she made a phone call. “Hola, Flora. Please tell everyone at the market that I am sorry I was unable to hand out paychecks. I had to go to immigration. Tell them I will be in tomorrow.” She placed her hand over the receiver and looked at Naomi. “What would you like to eat?” Naomi shrugged. When she did not answer, the old woman turned away and continued her conversation.

            The girl took a moment to take in her surroundings and discovered that the cheerful gingham wallpaper and spotless kitchen helped her feel at home in spite of her fears. She noticed that the kitchen tiles were reminiscent of an advertisement she had seen in a recent magazine. Believing that only the needy trafficked in others’ misery, she sighed with relief.

            “What would you like to eat?”

            “Whatever you have will be fine.” It seemed to Naomi that the woman had decided to treat her as a guest instead of the prisoner she knew herself to be. Her emotions heightened; she remembered how foolish she had been to trust Mr. Sosa and admitted to herself that she had been naive to accept this woman’s help without knowing what she had agreed to. Aware that she had placed herself in peril, she hardened her heart as she sat on the edge of the chair. The meal ordered the two of them, captor and captive, waited for it to arrive. Alone in this strange new land, Naomi tried to fight off her fear of this unknown woman and the situation as she reminded herself, There was no other choice.

            “Naomi,” the old tía said at last as her gaze swept over the girl. “Tell me how you came to be at immigration.”

            “Well …” Naomi stalled. How much do I tell this woman? Do I tell her the truth, and if not, what should I leave out or make up?

            “Naomi!” her sponsor snapped, her voice demanding an immediate answer. “Do not think about what to say. Just tell me, in the simplest way possible, how you came to be there.”

            Naomi swallowed. It seemed best to tell the truth, so she began, “I came with the Sosa family. I was the companion to their blind grandmother.”

            “That is an unusual job for one so young to have. By the looks of you, I would not think you more than twelve.”

            Naomi strained to sit taller in the chair. “I am fifteen.”

            Tía rose to fill their cups. “How does a girl as young as you find a job with a family coming America? You had not been a companion before, had you?”

            Naomi watched the old tía bring the cups to the table, took her first sip, and gulped down courage. “I was in need of employment.” Aware that the warm feelings she usually associated with tea did not exist here, she continued, “There was this family with a blind grandmother. They required someone to tend to her every need as well as read, play the piano, and help her enjoy the tour. They thought I might do.”

            “But you are so young. Why did they pick you?”

            “I do not know. Perhaps it was because I agreed to work for no wage.”

            “I see.” Tía’s gaze swept over the girl.

            Aware that what she said might have led the woman to think her easy to manipulate, Naomi added, “They pledged to help me find my uncle once they settled here. Then they changed their minds.”

            The old woman waved her comments away. Feeling them dismissed, she went against her upbringing and added, a note of pride in her voice, “But it was Abuela Sophia who chose me for herself!”

            “I see you found favor with her?”

            Mortified by her outburst, Naomi cast her eyes down and quietly admitted, “Yes.”

            “Then I am certain you will find favor with me also.”


~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Authors Comments


Tía’s expectations and Naomi’s fear of the situation she finds herself in are almost palatable. However, each of us is made of stronger stuff than we realize unless pressed to bare up under overwhelming obstacles. For learning to deal with life as it comes teaches us how to be true to our essence, that hard core of resolve which cannot be shaken. Yet, when we looked back, I imagine that each of us would recognize our crucible moments, moments where we learned how to yield to the situation without becoming other than we are. Some call these moments defining. In Naomi’s, mine, and perhaps in your situation the feeling might be one of hiding. And if that is how it felt it is sometimes hard to tell oneself that they acted rightly. But I am here to tell you that if you fall into this category, the better part of valor was to survive. After survival, which is the highest priority is insured, other things follow.

Now you might wonder what those other priorities are, so I’ll mention three:

1). Freedom to be

2). Freedom to think

3). Freedom to choose


Neither the things listed nor the ones you might want to add can fulfill Naomi’s or our needs at times. Because Scripture can, let me suggest one that has warmed my heart. Ephesians 2:8-10 For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God— not by works, so that no one can boast. For we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.

By now you may be scratching your head because sighting this verse in light of our heroines’ dilemma might seem odd. I agree! However, odd as it appears ‘saved’ as in being ‘forgiven’ for something you have done or omitted to do is always a good place to begin, so let’s begin. And who knows, perhaps by extending ‘grace and forgiveness’ to ourselves and others, we might see by the end of chapter onehow this horrid place and woman could become an unexpected blessing.


Want to find out what happens before my next posting? Visit http://www.amazon.com/ and order your copy of Casa de Naomi: The House of Blessing, and if you think your friends would enjoy joining you on this journey ask them to tag along as well. 

Resigned to the Situation, by Paula Rose Michelson


If Casa de Naomi: The House of Blessing took place today, what Naomi experiences would be classified at Human Trafficking. For The United Nations Office on Drugs and Crime, defines this crime against humanity as “…an act of recruiting, transporting, transferring, harboring or receiving a person through a use of force, coercion or other means, for the purpose of exploiting them.”

I bring this up because the public discourse about illegal immigrants changed when the category of Human Trafficking was accepted and, “…the UNODC, as guardian of the United Nations Convention against Transnational Organized Crime (UNTOC) and the Protocols thereto, assists States in their efforts to implement the  Protocol to Prevent, Suppress and Punish Trafficking in Persons (Trafficking in Persons Protocol),” separated that heinous crime from it’s inciting incident  which is an individuals need to change their life, thus endangering them.

Therefore, please note that when I speak of illegal’s I speak about those brought into this country illegally that do not know what their lot will be, but assume it will be better than where they came from.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~Today’s Read~~~~~~~~

Resigned to the situation, Naomi tried to find something positive to think about, she saw that a baby grand piano held the place of prominence in the sparsely furnished room and smiled in spite of herself when memories of playing the piano for Abuela Sosa surfaced. She reconsidered her assessment of the place and added the word grand. When her consciousness flooded with memories of the many times she had played for the Sosas’ blind grandmother, she reminded herself, That was another time, another place. Abuela Sosa is no more. Images that had brought her comfort as she traveled the world with them flashed before her eyes. In an attempt to stop them, she reminded herself that the promises they had made they had broken. Now those bright hopes will only bring you pain. It is best you think about this situation since it seems worse than the one you just left.

“Come.” The old tía pulled her through the living and dining rooms while she searched her ring. When they crossed the kitchen’s threshold, she found it and unlocked the handcuffs. She eyed Naomi. “This was just a precaution!” She threw the handcuffs down on the battered kitchen table.

Naomi looked at the cold steel.

“Sit down!”

Naomi obeyed, felt her will disappear, and wondered if the old tía viewed her as a tool to mold to her demands.

~~~~~~~~~~~~Reflection~~~~~~

Do you try to help others and end up hurting yourself?

Is this a habit, a life style, or do you get joy from living your life this way?

If you could find a way to change your behavior, would you, and why? If not, why not?


~~~~~~~~~~~Authors Comment~~~~~~~~~


Everything in life has a value and either a positive or negative emotion attached to it. Although our hard drive may have become programmed to do anything to get noticed because we are cogent we can retrain our responses thereby freeing ourselves of the need to feel better if we feel worse, or if we place others needs above ours.

However, our society seems to value selflessness. Therefore, the question one must ask and answer is who matters most? If you do, then your course is set. That is until you fall in love. For love has been known to be the great equalizer. And passionate love the great deflator if the object one loves does not respond in kind.

Contrary to popular opinion, to be self-centered does not necessarily mean that one is less likely to experience angst, or rejection. For the one who loves self might do so superficially to hide a deep loathing.

Caught between the proverbial ‘ying and yang’ of the id one might wish they could live in Limbo Land, and some do. Enter Human Trafficking and Naomi’s plight which needs to be understood within the larger issue of illegal immigrants who come from every place and look just like you and me! That’s right! Though they are suspect, they might not be the ones that are killing Americans at the boarder! Their not just Mexican, or Spanish. Their not coming here to wage war against America anymore than your family did when they first came here. There here because being there is horrid! So the next time someone looks at you esque, it just may be that their wondering if you’re here legally.


Now that you’ve walked a mile in Naomi’s footsteps’ you might understand her plight as we move on. And you might have taken a moment to think about what you would do if you were this frightened teenager.  

If you think I’m misguided in what I say, let me share that while withdrawing funds at my local bank my teller who had read Casa de Naomi: The House of Blessing, shared that years ago she was telling a coworker about the vacation she was going to take, and discovered that this blue-eyed, blond haired woman could not go on vacation because she was an illegal immigrant. The teller was amazed for this woman looked and sounded as if her family had been here for many years. However, because my teller was of Latin decent and her family spoke Spanish at home, she often noticed many cast curious glances her way.

Ask yourself, "What would I do, how would I feel if that happened to me?" When you know the answer to that question, you will be better equipped for whatever life brings your way.

Until next time, may all your days be blessed, and may you rest assured in Messiahs blessing!

To order your copy of Casa de Naomi: The House of Blessing, visit http://www.amazon.com/

Tomorrow Authors' Event


Meet the Authors’ Event! My friend Marlayne Grion and I will be selling and inscribing books at The Farmers Market at South Orange County Design Center, 3115 Harbor Blvd, Costa Mesa, CA 92626 Saturday, January 28, 2012 from 9-3, and hope to see you there!  

Can Running Away Help You Change Your Life? by Paula Rose Michelson


~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~The Text~~~~~~~~~~~~~~


While Tía spoke about saving young girls—her niñas, she called them—from deportation, Naomi understood a little about what she had agreed to and her heartbeat slowed. Her thoughts drifted to the letter from her uncle and her plans to find him once she had arrived safely in America. She placed her free hand in her skirt pocket and felt the letter’s edge, worn rough from her family’s continual folding and unfolding of this breath of freedom from across the ocean. She could not remember a time before the letter from her tío for his description of the bright promise of America had given her family hope. Whenever life became bitter and difficult, her parents would pull it out and read it to the family. Then they would commit to each other, “Next year in America!” instead of the customary “Next year in Jerusalem!” as every Jew says at the end of the Passover meal. For, to them, America was the promised land. Naomi fingered the letter’s edge and silently promised, I will find you, mi tío. I will find you as soon I am able.


Tía continued to talk while she dragged Naomi through the vestibule. The girl stumbled, righted herself, and noticed the parlor on her left. When Tía stopped to put her mail on the sideboard, Naomi looked around. No one would ever suspect that a house so unkempt on the outside had such comfortable furnishings within. She wondered at the absurdity of her looking at the place and thinking as she had, rather than trying to find a way to flee, and reminded herself that although she was in America; nothing had changed.


~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Authors Observation~~~~~~~~~~~~

Today we see Naomi’s situation through her eyes, as she realizes the sad truth that nothing has changed. Whether this is really true or not, does not matter. For as we believe we are, and we continue in that belief until something within us changes thereby allowing us to own a new reality.

Friends, helpers, or even family members may try to assist with our changing perceptions, or help us reground ourselves. If you wonder why many chose to get involved, the reasons are as varied as the colors of the rainbow. However, it is sufficed to say that if the rainbow colors they speak of are theirs you might not end up living the life you ought.

The truth that I learned many years ago and continue to relearn when difficult situations occur is that no one can fix what we are going through. As much as they wish us well, they can, however, impede our learning what we need to so that we can move on.


~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Reflection~~~~~~~~~~~~~~


Who can you go to that will love and not judge you?


Must others believe that your truth is true before you will feel valued?


What can you tell yourself that will allow you to own your own reality? 



Although I do not know how you will respond to the questions posted today, here is a Scripture that helped me on my way. I hope it will speak to your heart as they did mine.

When I read, Matthew 6:33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well, I discovered that there was someone I could rely on who had already given me what I needed.

Yes! God is Involved in the Details! By Paula Rose Michelson


As some of you might have noticed, on the 14th of this month I removed this blog from Face Books NetWorked Blogs, and the following day I deleted my Year of 5,000 Books blog as well. While on my Face Book page today, I noticed that the system showed that I write a blog. When I checked NetWorked Blogs I found that they must have reinstated this blog.

This is amazing!

Why, you might wonder, is this amazing?

Because although FB had told me that this Blog was smappy and dangerous, in hindsight, I found myself wondering if the issue was one of having two blogs posted there. Besides, I missed all of YOU! So hallelujah, Casa de Naomi Reflections is back!

I’ll be posting to this blog next week and look forward to seeing all of you then!  

If you haven’t joined me before, I post excerpts from Casa de Naomi: The House of Blessing Book 1, and post some reflective questions that you can answer or not, as you chose.

Interested in the idea, but want to know more before you buy the book? You can watch the trailer at: To watch the trailer, visit http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tDXgUNpNJuQ

Wondering Why? by Paula Rose Michelson

Wonder why the cluster of 81 people following this blog through NetWorked Blogs is missing? It's simply a matter of remaining true to first things first. Firstly, I felt called to write, and God gifted my work. Before the book this blog was named for was printed I decided to begin this blog as a means of connecting with readers and others that might become readers.

Since my first blog, "Year of 5,000 Books," was posted on Face Book, I felt this one should appear there as well. Almost from its inception, my "Casa de Naomi Reflections Blog" seemed to come under some sort of scrutiny. Last week I tried to link my new posting on this blog to Face Book. The system informed me that this blog was spammy and dangerous! I sent several inquires through the system to no avail.

Perhaps it was that nameless, faceless systems lack of response, or perhaps it was a bigger picture of what a blog could be and how limiting it is for someone no one had ever seen or met, or may not exist to label another's work that led me to pull the blog. I may never know for sure exactly what motivated me. What I do know is this, numbers or pictures of people following do not a following make anymore than dying ones hair red makes them a redhead.

You are the reason this blog exists! So please drop by often and invite your friends to check out the postings as well. And, if you feel that this blog needs your in put, please be sure to leave your comments or critiques.